I sit here with you again in the hospital as you fight to feel better. The most recent news has not been promising and I can only sit back and watch your pain continue and your earthly form deteriorate. I ask every night for there to be some amount of closure to this existence for you whatever that means. I plead that you be made whole or at least leave this world peacefully. You do not deserve the level of suffering that you experience every day.
This is the meaning of cruel and unusual punishment which I guess is only inappropriate according to man’s law. HIS law on the other hand is many times misunderstood or at least mis-taken. I have to wonder what the message is in all of this for you, me, and the rest of those close to you.
I simply do not have the capacity to understand nor the faith to believe in it. All I know is that you are suffering day in and day out and are now having to miss one of the most important times in your granddaughter’s life. I know that this is not what you want nor is it what any of us want for you.